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  1. Anxiety is a bitch man. Mine started more from stress/bad GERD triggering it, but it's gotten to an obsessive state of worry over my health. I went from zero to 100 real quick out of nowhere at the beginning of the month, hadn't had attacks in years. Everything is setting me off, health wise mainly like overthinking what this pain or that feeling is. Been to the ER 3 times this month, started seeing a regular dr. Currently am on Protonix and Carafate for my reflux, Zoloft and Buspar for anxiety, and blood pressure meds twice a day. It's scary as shit. They have done EKGs every time, checked my blood, heart rate/sound etc, everything short of going to a cardiologist (which they wanted me to last time I was at the ER) but they have told me my heart sounds fine. I had all this happen in 2011 and hadn't had it since. The worst part for me right now is they didn't/wouldn't give me anything for immediate relief from my attacks, as they're bad attacks. The Zoloft and Buspar, hell even the BP meds too but not as much, are going to take around 2 weeks to get in my system and really make a difference. I try to tell myself i'm okay and that i'm not having a heart attack but it's hard to convince yourself when you feel that way. Even right now my jaws are hurting, which I made the mistake and read that could be a sign for a heart attack last week and it just amplified my fear, but my LOGICAL guess is that it's from almost having an attack this morning, lack of good sleep since my body is adjusting to these meds, and probably tensing up too much. I was perfectly fine yesterday, BP was low and HR was normal which was so weird after 2 weeks of hell, then it just hit me. I've seen that a lot of people apparently take BP meds that have severe anxiety so that helps me feel a little calmer but just in general anything to do with my chest area/heart completely and utterly freaks me out.
  2. Health update:
    Took me off of Hydroxzine since it wasn't helping, kept me on carafate and protonix for my stomach. Now i'm also on Zoloft and Buspar for anxiety/depression (mainly anxiety), and a low blood pressure pill. Praying this does the trick for me.

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    3. Main Pop Girl

      Main Pop Girl

      I think @jaycoolguy was using the downvote as a feature to show that he was disliking the fact that someone was having anxiety, not that he was disliking the fact that someone was talking about it. :magic: They meant it in a nice way even if it might have come off differently.

    4. jaycoolguy

      jaycoolguy

      thank you countess I not a mean person :( esp when i been through it my self <3 

  3. 3rd ER visit in 2 weeks.

    1. Rich Girl
    2. LEAKBUBBLEGUM

      LEAKBUBBLEGUM

      On the road to it, I hope. I'm having constant panic/anxiety attacks for no reason, and I get too far into my head thinking about my blood pressure being high or heart beating fast, think about having a heart attack constantly, so my mind is in shambles and working against me. I hopefully start counseling tomorrow and HOPEFULLY they'll put me on something like they gave me in the ER (a benzo, Klonzopin or whatever) to keep me calm for a few weeks until this is sorted out.

    3. Main Pop Girl

      Main Pop Girl

      @eyb0ss Stay strong boo, I know it's hard but just keep remembering that you can stop this with your willpower! <3 I believe in you!

  4. I hate trying to convince myself i'm going to be okay with my current state of anxiety.

  5. Secong ER visit in 2 weeks, things be great. :yeah:

    1. Main Pop Girl

      Main Pop Girl

      :o What's going on boo? Are you okay? <3 

    2. LEAKBUBBLEGUM

      LEAKBUBBLEGUM

      We don't really know for sure yet. My blood pressure stays a bit high, has for a few weeks now, and i've been having these really bad panic attacks on top of what they called PAT attack (my heart rate can go to around 180bpm out of nowhere). My chest gets really tight, hurts, arms go numb, etc. It happened several years ago but stopped, now it's randomly back. It's possible it's a lot to do with my gerd/acid reflux and vice vera, apparently anxiety and acid reflux/heart burn kinda fuel the fire for each other. I have to go to a cardiologist again, which they said they believe im fine there but want to be sure, and counseling to be put on better anxiety meds (they have me on an antihistamine rn instead of anxiety meds, plus 2 stomach pills) Hoping I can get the meds sorted out this week because it can be unbearable and just straight up uncomfortable.

    3. Main Pop Girl

      Main Pop Girl

      @eyb0ss Oh nooo, that really sucks! :fishie: I've definitely had things like that before and it really can get hard to breathe and function. I'm gonna keep you in my prayers, just remember to stay calm and practise your deep breathing. <3

  6. lol  'writing session next week, finishing up music, oh i got a show coming in october and id like to bring the show i just did to the states'

    literally all she said about music pretty much.

     

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    2. Main Pop Girl

      Main Pop Girl

      Why do I have to keep telling y'all this? :idkher: JUST GIVE UP! Kerli is cancelled. We'll never get a second album. End of story. :hottie: 

    3. konnichiwalski

      konnichiwalski

      She's been writing this album since early 2014 and it's yet to be finished. It's time to accept it's never gonna be released. :disgusted:

    4. Feral Heart

      Feral Heart

      actually she knew the album wasn't coming out last year in july, she did an interview right before diamond hard came out and it said the album was expected "early 2017"

  7. I want the new Ev album now :( I hope BMTL sounds good.

    1. Main Pop Girl

      Main Pop Girl

      I can't wait for it either! :yaskween: The concept is so cool, it's gonna be great to get into all those old bops again!

  8. I wouldn't bet on it honestly.
  9. I don't see Hottie registered anywhere.
  10. wot, stop dying your hair more than me

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    1. Main Pop Girl

      Main Pop Girl

      It actually looks good tbh. :stretcher: But are you sure it's not just a wig?

  11. Kerli has two performances coming, one the second week of August and one in October (I believe), so the chances of a single dropping are going up, at least. And she wants to tour so it's possible we'll be getting new on the album soon with the album coming out around fall. That said, it was supposed to come out last September, so god only knows.

    1. Feral Heart

      Feral Heart

      i have a feeling it won't come out until after the second performance in october :/ 

    2. LEAKBUBBLEGUM

      LEAKBUBBLEGUM

      As long as she releases some news/singles, I could care less about when the album drops anymore. I've had it preordered for a year and everything lol.

  12. someone post love me down stems xo

     

    :fishie:

  13. gorl

    gimme a new song

    someone give me a new kerli song plz

    i'll like

    love you idk 1$?

    '

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    2. Main Pop Girl

      Main Pop Girl

      7 hours ago, eyb0ss said:

      Right? Either shut the fuck up and finish the shit, then talk about it when you release it, or don't talk at all. These little teases and 'oh im settled in -going on 2 months in estonia, 2 months to settle in ya ok gurl- and have been in the studio but i'm about to actually start working on my album that in 2 months will be 1 year past due. I'll be dead before the album comes out.

      Exactly! We've been getting these posts about her "creative process" and how "spiritually fulfilled" she is for years, and every single time they amount to nothing. How about instead of building yet another house in the fucking woods you go to Hollywood, suck a few dicks and actually get an album out for the few remaining fans you have? :vacuum: 

    3. naecos

      naecos

      The question now is not WHEN, but IF the album will be released:tanya:

    4. konnichiwalski

      konnichiwalski

      This album is never seeing the light sis, let it go.

  14. tfw you update your trade list and basically you just removed half of a already tiny list

    sos

    kerli, do something for the love of all things holy.

     

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  15. tfw you're done with kerli but highkey still want a new song or something sos

    1. Feral Heart

      Feral Heart

      new songs will be performed on august 12th :wink:

    2. LEAKBUBBLEGUM

      LEAKBUBBLEGUM

      u w0t m8

      what's she doing on the 12th?
      even tho I washed my hands of her mentally, I still physically check everything as always, you know me lol :fishie:

    3. Feral Heart

      Feral Heart

      saaremaa festival in estonia

       

  16. http://steamcommunity.com/id/homoseshual/ battlenet: EiKneadHeelz#1494
  17. nvm fake
  18. The link doesnt work
  19. Is it the actual full or the edited one that just repeats itself?
  20. Kerli's album isn't going to be out for at least another 3 months. This is it. While i'll still be happy to have new songs by her when the time comes, i'm washing my hands of her. She replied to a comment about her releasing a song before she leaves for the summer saying something like 'dood I just released a song two weeks ago (her feature with Illenium) and I released 5 songs this year, two that were free downloads (last you mean girl, this year, YOU haven't released a song, only a feature), and telling the person to think about it.' [ dood I released a song like 2 weeks ago. And have released 5 this year, 2 of which are free giveaways. Working on the album now but really, think about it. ] Gorl. You think about it. The album was set for september LAST year. And its looking like september THIS year is STILL going to be too soon. Fuck outta here.
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