Kesha Slays

For some reason, I think I am! I just need to keep reminding myself that he's no longer having those weird seizures (which I'm still debating on whether or not they were actually seizures, but for the time being we'll stick with that). He's not in pain and he'll never** be forgotten. I believe it's going to take time, but I'm going to have to take it one day at a time, until eventually the pain fades and I'll be able to look back at more fond memories of him without crying. Today was kind of nice though cause I got to get out of the house to go shopping with my sister, my 1 year old nephew, my brother and his girlfriend. We also went out to eat afterwards and it was enjoyable and relaxing. I think that helped shift my focus a little bit. It was nice. I also want to take this time to say just how much I appreciate this and how I deeply appreciate how you and everyone reached out to me and how you keep coming back to talk to me, cause sure some people have commented and whatnot, but no one has ever kept coming back to ask me if I'm doing better or anything like that. I really really appreciate it. You don't understand how much that means to me! Thank you from the bottom of my heart! ❤️✌️😘

I'm just remembering why I took this photo lmao! I saw him asleep on the couch and I walked by, but I kept hearing this weird noise. At first I thought it was the TV in the other room, but then I got up closer to my dog just to find him snoring! I didn't know dogs could snore! 🤣🤣🤣🤣 I did end up taking a video of him snoring, but I can't find it.

You're right about vets not being cheap! I also happen to believe that Buddy was an older dog. He also was part German Shepherd and they tend to have shorter life spans than other breeds. At least, the German Shepherds in my neck of the woods tend to do, the K-9's in my town all retire between 6-8 years old. That's how I found out that the average lifespan of a German Shepherd is closer to 10-13 years rather than 13-15 years like most dog breeds. Although, my research could be wrong. Of course I think it also depends on how well you look after your dog cause I've found out recently that some breeds are outliving others by a longshot. Quality of life is important. I know Buddy lived a good life and he went both quickly and peacefully so, I'm grateful he wasn't suffering too much in the end.

Actually, we never got the chance to take him to a vet. We got him from a friend of my sister's. He was a rescue dog. They got him from a shelter in Tennessee (at least that's what I believe to be true since the one time my brother and sister took him to the vet, the vet said that he has a chip in him that lists him being from Tennessee). He was insured just not by us so we had to pay out of pocket. We did find out that he had hip problems. The vet gave us this bag of medical treats that were only like $40 which we only got once, probably should have gotten more. That one time we took him to the vet, it was because A) the vet had a cancellation in her schedule so, she was able to see him right away and B) my father had just received a check from my grandmother's estate, so we were able to afford it. My sister tried taking him to a vet when he first started having seizures, but the only one that would see him was 2 hours away and you had to pay 50% of the bill upfront, that was just to be seen. He ended up being okay for a while after his first couple seizures. Plus, to me, they looked more like a charlie horse than that of a seizure, but I could be wrong. He bounced back really quick to be honest. I really thought he was going to be okay. I know we should've tried harder to take better care of him. I do feel guilty about that. I would've sold my kidney just so he could be seen if it came down to it.

This is Buddy. I wanted to post a picture of him with his eyes open, but all of those ones exceed the posting file limit or whatever. Plus, I always thought he looked so cute while napping! I guess I never realized before just how many photos I have of him sleeping lmao! He had one blue eye and one brown eye! I loved his two different colored eyes!

Thank you! It's going to be memories like those that keep me from being completely unmotivated.

It's honestly one of my favorite stories to tell lmao! I think I shared it on here before maybe like twice in the past year or so? But, this time I went all out in detail!

Oooo now I like the idea of this thread! There's so many unreleased music that has impacted my life one way or another. Now this is and isn't necessarily unreleased. Imma try to explain this the best I can. It's late November 2016. American rapper Wiz Khalifa is introduced as being a performer at Mnet Asian Music Awards (aka MAMA for those that don't know). It was announced he would he performing a rendition of his smash hit 'See You Again' (originally released in March 2015 with American singer-songwriter Charlie Puth) with an A-List K-Pop singer. There were rumors about who it could be for about a week, until someone who works at MAMA (could be someone else, but I think I remember hearing something about it being a crew member or somebody) shared a video of the rehearsal for the performance. It was revealed to be South Korean singer TAEYEON of the group Girls' Generation (or SNSD for which they are known as in Korea). It's now December 2nd, 2016. It shocked everyone when Wiz Khalifa took to the stage by himself and used a backing track of Charlie Puth's vocals. After the performance, Wiz Khalifa went on to Twitter to say that TAEYEON had to back out of the performance because someone from her team told him that she had to go to the hospital. Turns out that wasn't true. TAEYEON actually backed out of performing the song because during the rehearsal they used a backing track with no backing vocals (meaning it was just the instrumental playing). TAEYEON's team wanted her to sing loud enough so that her voice would cover the backing vocals being used and because of this mixup her team couldn't approve of the performance. What triggers me is the fact that Wiz wasn't even told of TAEYEON having backing out of the performance until like 20 minutes before he was supposed to appear on stage. Anyways, DJ Bonics, a long time DJ who works with Wiz Khalifa was kind enough to share a 20 second snippet of the cover, which would've been used for the performance, to his Instagram. This happened I think like maybe a day or two later. Then in May 2017 about 5 months later, DJ Bonics announced he would be sharing the cover on a radio station. Well he did stick to his word, but the cover was ultimately ruined with really obnoxious watermarks all over TAEYEON'S parts. Like seriously was was even the point of sharing it then? Anyways, imma link everything here, I hope y'all enjoyed this lil music history lesson, imma also link the article I read which explained everything better so in case y'all want to read it cause truth be told I might've missed something or got something wrong. https://www.koreaboo.com/stories/taeyeon-wiz-khalifa-fight-mama-2016/ Here is a filtered unwatermarked: https://youtu.be/EJ7O5DfyJAo Here is the tagged HQ version: https://krakenfiles.com/view/J0PYSxc4Kr/file.html

I know Bonnie's album is going to help me out with this current depression I'm going through so, now I'm even more excited! I also know it's going to make so many people here and obviously Bonnie really happy, like really f*cking happy, like unimaginably happy so, that too is something I'm looking forward to seeing! I might not be the biggest Bonnie McKee fan here, I definitely don't deserve that title, but I always find it really amazing when y'all rave over Bonnie and her music! It's what I admire the most about this thread! June 28th can't come soon enough!! ✌️❤️

The thing with Buddy was that he would have to initiate the cuddling. He had no problem cuddling with my brother. Only once did he ever want to cuddle with me and that was because my brother wasn't home and it was storming and he was sleeping on the couch in my room, but he must've gotten afraid of the storm or something cause the next thing I knew, he was using his front paws to push my legs to the side and he jumped onto my twin sized mattress, which he easily took up like half of it. He stayed there with me for like 20 minutes until the storm died down a lil. That's one memory I'll always keep close to me.

Music is definitely a good source that'll help realign my focus. It's something I've always relied on. Fingers crossed, I try everything I can to overcome this loss. I know I probably sound so dramatic right now, it's just I'm kinda typing what comes to the top of my head first instead of actually taking a second to think about what I'm typing lmao. I honestly feel like I'm sounding really annoying.

My heart hurts. It physically hurts. I once read that elephants can die of a broken heart. Now I'm sitting here thinking about how sad an elephant must be for it to die from a broken heart. This is how I'm feeling. I appreciate you and @Kipper and everyone else who replied to my status and gave me advice on things that I can do to help with the coping. I wanted to write more sincere replies, but it's kinda hard at the moment.

@Dax Diameter I believe this is the thread that you mentioned? For those that may not have read my recent status update, a few days ago, our family dog, Buddy, passed away after suffering a seizure. He was around 6 years old when we got him in February 2019 and although I never knew the date he was born, allegedly he was born in August 2012. I recently discovered that because of his breed and the fact that he wasn't purebred, his life expectancy was actually a little shorter compared to others. He lived to be about 10 or 11 years old, which is really a long time if you think about it. He was half German Shepherd half Australian Shepherd mix. He was a great dog. I was not his favorite person. He really imprinted on my brother who was with him when he died. But, I know he loved me and the other members of my family just the same. He would give me kisses and we'd go on walks. He even came with us on a family vacation once. He loved car rides. He was everything you could want in a pet except the cuddling. He would only allow cuddles on his terms. He would simply get up and move if you tried cuddling him. He would allow hugs tho. He was super friendly. He never bit anyone ever. He was my furry four-legged friend and now he's gone. Trying to post a photo of him, but it's not letting me....

Idk about hacking her harddrive for this but I'd love to hear the stems and recording sessions! Also for remixing purposes, but just to hear her vocals and everything sounds so cool to me!

On a different topic, anybody else still bopping to Bonnie's worktapes to 'Dumb Blonde' or is it just me?!?

I don't care what date it's released on so long as it's a Friday! Or a Saturday. Any other day of the week doesn't seem right to me. So long as it's a Friday in the summer, I really could care less if she released it in June, July, August or early September (it should be a summer month). I mean I do like the idea of Bonnie dropping the album on June 25th for nostalgic purposes, but I won't be too butthurt if it doesn't get released on that date.

We need All In! And those English language versions of the tracks from Alpha! And her HQ demo of Let Me Love You!

Oooooo this was so cool!! I knew about the New Boyz remix to Boyfriend, but I was today years old when I discovered that Snoop Dogg had also been featured on a remix!!! I loved his parts, especially the fact that it was in both verses and not just a 10 second feature in the bridge like they do nowadays. This was a great post! Thank you for sharing!!

Selena Gomez & DJ Snake - Let Me Love You (Demo) I'll be 10 years dead before this ever sees the light of day Some honorable mentions: Selena Gomez - i'm so tired (Demo for Lauv & Troye Sivan) Wiz Khalifa & TAEYEON - See You Again (HQ Unedited/Untagged) Kesha - Till the World Ends (Solo Demo), Timber (Solo Demo) Jordin Sparks - The Way (Demo for Ariana Grande), Tipsy ('Better Left Unsaid' Demo for Ariana Grande), Who Says (Demo for Selena Gomez), Skyscraper (Demo for Demi Lovato) Demi Lovato - Break A Sweat Bebe Rexha - Crowded Room (Demo), Tally (HQ Demo) Carly Rae Jepsen - The Middle, Dedicated title track Tove Lo - The Middle, One In A Million (Demo for Hilary Duff), Sparks (Demo for Hilary Duff) Plus others but I don't want to be here all night.....

You have great taste! Welcome! Hope you enjoy your stay! 😊✌️

IMO It sounds really good. It's just I personally probably wouldn't have had Ariana's backing vocals in the bridge and final chorus.