hey, i actually don't really want to talk about my personal life here but i really need some opinion and advice on this, i hope y'all can help me
okay, so i'm still on my college break at the moment before the new semester (i'd be in my sophomore year if i keep going) and well, i personally think college isn't for me from the start but i still attended classes and managed to get fine grades (3.71 GPA for the first year) because i felt obligated to do so. now, i really want to get myself into music, i asked my parents for some money (i've hung out less than ten times since i was in 8th grade, so it's like i've hung out less than ten times in the last five years) to buy music kit (microphone, midi keyboard, etc.) since before i went to college and until now, they still haven't given the money (keep in mind, i live in southeast asia, nobody really works until they finish college here).
the problem is i just really got into music just recently (around 10th grade) so when i told my parents i wanted to start a music project, they were very skeptical about it. now that i've waited for a year, i don't wanna give in and push my plan away anymore because i'm afraid my dream is going to be dead if i don't work on it soon. my parents still don't have the money and i understand that. so i told my parents that i wanted to take a leave (a semester long, the last payment the enrollment is this friday so i'm running out of time) from college so i could focus on my music project, my mom was/is not happy with the idea. she's very skeptical about this and tells me that i have no talent in music (though i argued with here i wouldn't be able to draw if i didn't learn) and she doesn't really buy it. (i might share my covers soon and i'll need some feedback to see if my mom's statement is true or not)
the reason why i want to start a music project, and also vlogging is that because i hate living in this country so i just hope if i do that, it'll help me move from this hellhole (living where you have nobody to relate to will drive you crazy. i know because it drives me crazy).
my question is, how do i convince my parents (especially my mom, because my dad seems to be on my side) that this is really something i wanna do and i don't wanna push my plan further any longer?
thank you.