WEAPONS

Finally it happened for me, right in front of my face and I just can't hide it 🎵 

Had to change my name cause BUBBLEGUM LEAKED? It's so weird tbh. I've waited so many years, a decade and a half, and even tho it's just a song, it's from a great time in my life with someone I truly loved more than anyone else, someone who I haven't been with in also 15 years, miss dearly, or maybe the idea of him and that time, and still have literal dreams of what could have been. So in a way, it's the end of that chapter, unfortunately not in a mental sense because no matter how hard I try, still have random dreams about him and I wake up depressed for days. I don't think about him unless I have a dream the night before. And it makes me miserable because I'm at the lowest of my life currently and a completely different person that I was just 5 years ago, the opposite, and it's my own fault but once you get into this mindset and let your mental health and physical health go, it's hard to recoup from it and that's where I'm at. It hurts knowing your just a shell of yourself, and you know you can fix it but can't will it, at least right now.

So anyway. Metaphorically can close that chapter and finally listen to my most wanted song ever. 😂